(Edited 11/28/2023)

Some of you already know who I am outside of this page. Mostly by choice, since I know these are people that understand why I have to keep things a secret. Some of this is bleeding into other sites I manage, and I have thought countless times what it’ll be like if I finally reveal it on a particular friends list.

Some are already in a field of mental health and wellness, either personally or professionally. They may agree and add their own experiences to posts, just as others have between here and on the IG sibling site.

Part of me still has that feeling of retaliation when an alert says someone replied. It used to depend on who it is, but the more more problematic ones are gone now.

All that’s left now is facing the remnants of emotions they left behind and not carry them over to people that are truly helpful and supportive.

On the funny yet eye-rolling side, some will catch on to the media titles most of these will reference and say “[insert title] would be a better choice.”

Right. Because I’m writing this for your approval, and not for the years of repeatedly bending to someone else’s comforts. But thanks for the future title to use! [Insert snappy insult]

Others may realize that I’m deeper than just sharing memes relative to what I’ve said on here. I’d never say that I’m “deep” to someone. For me it gives off the “I’m a nice [person]” vibe that’s already a flag in specific cases.

Then I think of the times I was fearful of exposure from the beginning, like me saying this to the wrong person or people and have it used against me. To some degree, I’m still afraid of that, since one of them has since become the inspiration to a few older posts. Chances are they won’t, so as the phrase goes, “bless their heart.”

Finally, the outright unpredictable reaction. One that I won’t see coming, and either can be a shot in the dark or a kiss. I prefer the latter.

Whatever comes of that day, should it happen, I know that the decision to show this to a wider audience will be from an informed place.

But now I’m thinking that the things I’ve already talked about on those platforms have been attractive and polarizing enough. Aside from familial references through this which one will definitely catch on to, it’ll be what it’ll be.

And as the classic saying goes, and I’m certain I’ve said here before:
“If it hurts you, it’s about you.”

D.F.