(Edited 11/28/2023)

So right after writing my last entry, something great occurred to me.

In regards to the financial abuse side of it, I’ve been given an opportunity to have a series of things still happening for me to get away from this cycle.

I’ll save the details, but what’s asked for is far removed from what it could have been had I been employed before recently. The other half of that can be put towards my own place again, regardless of it being a house or apartment.

So long as no other questions regarding my history are asked, peace towards my goals are still intact. Surely they always were. All because I reminded myself that even with annoyances that deserve to be revealed, I’m still good.

I wouldn’t be surprised if this discovery was based on venting in the last post. Pretty certain it is, not just because it’s worked in the past, but there had always been anxiety about exposure about my “financial transition period” (hereafter, FTP).

And even if they did know, and I’m sure in time they will, what’s to lose? The victories during that have led to another one right here, and surely there are more to come. And I said before that I believe all I’ve lost will return to me.

That’s the beauty of working through trauma and abuse. As hard as it can be, there’s that silver lining, or linings that can give you hope in what you need to maintain that new sense of love, respect, and peace that you not only desire, but will protect once it’s yours.

For me, maybe this is the inner child/young adult me side celebrating this realization, and how it ties to others. Still worth popping bottles over.

Not for you, “young me.” You’re getting apple juice :p

D.F.