For the first time in over 5 years, I finally feel free of that line of thinking. Freer, anyway. Like cutting a tether to emotions that I outgrew, but a few strands remained.

Maybe because I wanted them to. Because I thought that was the way to emotionally win a battle that I already have victory from. That was the wrong way, and deep inside I knew that.

All that was needed was a key action towards it.

As for how I managed to not fulfill the water works plan, I told myself that I had grown so much since that time, that I was able to take that younger self into my arms, and tell him that you made it. You survived. That you will survive what is next, including the things that are of now to us of this year, and even this month.

Perhaps there will be other events I can do this with from the past, but this one may be the most impactful. Maybe because without it, I would not have gone on to the mental health journey that would inspire this very blog, and other related things outside of it.

And if I did not know things would be better for me because of it back then, I would have now.

D.F.