One thing I never fully talked about is how in my healing journey, sometimes my mind takes me back to old places where I wasn’t as protective of myself as I wished I was. It ties to many statements about forgiving yourself for who you were in those seasons.

I do in most. Others, not well enough.

But my mind takes it further.

“What if you were taken back to that time? How would your present self handle the old events?”

Some I would do my best to bite my tongue like I did the first time. Others I would speak up sooner. Or the times I did speak, replace the words that would be based on prior experience of that moment.

The results would be different. New lessons could erase the memories the ones I gained naturally. I could risk being a different person than before. Overall, this is simply the imagination running wild, seeking entertainment from the lessons.

Or maybe there’s more to learn from those unexpected deep dives. Which I wouldn’t be surprised if that were the case.

At least this time, I’m better equipped to not run from them like I used to.

D.F.