(Note: This was originally written in August 2023. Enough of it is still relevant. Enough to even keep its original title.)

Even with everything that I have shared and have been able to process since this started, I’m still learning how to protect myself from emotional attacks based off past events. It’s hard to do when you share any space with people that can do that at any time they please.

Regardless if anyone is in the room with you or not, they may have mastered the ability to dig at you subtly or with enough strength to keep making your business theirs, and their ego priority.

They may want you too exhausted to fight, or to get the last word in. But that’s where they’re wrong. No matter how well they can get either one, it shouldn’t change your mind about who they are and what needs to be said about them.

What they do with that information, and what my sources will do about mine, will have to be left up to chance. And I know that time is coming soon.

I might even be the reason behind letting it leak. I’ll be sure to let it be known what the results are. Long time followers deserve that much, just as much as the new ones.

Until then, I just have to remember to breathe to regulate everything and anything that comes to mind that sets those moments off inside me. It’s saved me so far, but I can’t say for how long.

Then again, I didn’t get this far by doubting my ability to push through it. There was a time that I doubted this blog would go past a month, or a week at least. It’s served as a reminder to keep going, fighting, and breathing.

Many will support me, but no one can do it for me. That’s what I have to make sure I keep stepping forward. So much, that the last steps out of certain houses will stay that way for good.

D.F.