Darling.

Sweetheart.

Terms of endearment that I have received from even staff members in different places. But even in older seasons, and under uncomfortable habits, I don’t think I’ve ever called anyone I had a relationship with words like that.

Recently, that has changed.

Granted, I am still declared single, and we are friends on the surface, but for some time now I have gained a mutual love interest that is the most unique one yet.

Unique because of its origins, circumstances, and even the most surreal similarities.

Recently we have discussed the chance of becoming official despite our distance from each other. A very small group of friends know of the matter, and I surely talked about this with my therapist.

But I think what matters the most is that this is proof of the power behind being patient for a version of love that I always believed in, but wasn’t ready for with who I was prior to this.

There are other factors that we have repeatedly discussed in our time together. Even in our rougher moments, we’ve come to a point where they may not matter anymore. We are eager to discuss this further in person, to know for sure that we want to go to the next level.

Maybe we will or won’t. Even if we are meant to be with completely different people in the longer run, the patience and maturity built up between us will be beneficial for a lasting and purer love than we’ve ever had prior to us.

I look forward to seeing what’s next.

D.F.