I love what I’ve done on this page. I know that if I can steady my mind long enough, I will be right back to it. I am not without topics to visit and revisit.

I did start writing a long piece that is still being edited, with the topic of “can a toxic person change?” I have multiple answers to that.

Aside from that, it’s become harder to be as consistent as I used to be on here because I start asking myself questions like “does anyone care what I have to say (anymore)?” “Should I be mad that this hasn’t been discovered, considering my lengths to remain ‘private’?”

Then I tell myself that I didn’t start it to be discovered. I started it because I wanted to discover myself. Some type of proof that the inner work was starting, and now evolved into something beyond what I saw in myself.

There’s also the fact that where I was when I started the page isn’t where I am now. Physically, I’m in the same place that inspired a great deal of hard topics, but I have to look at the positives that came during it.

I was unemployed when this started, so I had time in-between stressing over it, and more.

Now I’m over a year into my position. I earned two certificates related to sociology and human behavior, with a third one in mind that, like the others, can lead to a new career, or enhance my status with this job.

Fitness has also been a focus. I’ve done a few virtual yoga sessions before starting the classes, and now spending time at a local gym when I can with a focus on cardio.

And though relationship statuses are not officially changed yet, I have found romantic love again. Logistics are a hurdle among other things, but it’s okay. Sometimes who you share that love with is more about who and where you are emotionally and/or spiritually, not just by physical distance.

And I’ve chosen a new pen name to go by. Something that’s a blend of two worlds I’ve lived and live in. Sort of a Yin and Yang vibe going on. The few people that know me outside of this might understand it, but I’ll explain for others later.

So all of that is proof there’s plenty to discuss when I can anchor myself long enough to share what I can.

The blog began as a way to heal in places I knew needed regulation, and others I did not know of or even avoided as it continued. Now it’s a place to confirm that it’s worked, and still working.

And it’s far from over.

– Kingston Priest