(Edited 1/9/2023)

I have talked about a lot of deep things about my past on here, but here’s one current fun fact about me: I’m a gamer. Not one that stays up on all the latest games, but still keeps my ear to the ground about a few things here and there.

In the time that I have been one, there were multiple personalities explored through it. The fun and the whimsical type, the brooding and melancholic, and anything that’s in between.

This is true when it’s a digital or board game, and too often I have had fun playing them with other people. But I am often reminded of the kinds of gamers that want nothing but to be the star of the show.

I don’t remember if there were any times in the past where I had been that way, but I would not be surprised. Mostly because I can think of more recent years where I had done that in groups outside of gaming, while in others have been able to regulate that mentality.

The former isn’t fun to look back on, but even in a general case, healing comes in waves. I’d imagine the same applies for accountability, except that should be a lot more stapled to your logic versus fleeting.

It’s still a means to escape, though not during the hours of other productive activities.

But there’s one thing I can remember comparing it to long before my healing journey began. It’s that when dealing with certain obstacles, you keep trying until the one way they want you to beat it is complete.

In other cases, it’s fine to handle them a different way than what’s programmed to occur.

It can be through coming back to an area with upgraded gear. Awareness of the battle environments that can benefit you. Even using items you minimally used, or outright neglected early on, until a pivotal moment.

And if things get too hard, or are hard from the start, there are always cheat codes. Just be careful of how you translate comparing that to real life.

This may be a topic worth re-exploring later, but even if you’re not a gamer, you can see how well the logics behind it is relative to our real world functions. In those rare, miraculous instances, you get an extra life, but don’t mess with your real life as if certain codes are on your side.

Otherwise, the game will be over before you even learn how to play it.