(Edited 12/26/2022)

I saw a person once say that anger is based on a place where you expected love and did not receive it. I can relate to that, all the way to how deep it can keep you locked into a place you’ve outgrown.

Dark thoughts have a way to keep us captive for a long time. Even when you find a way to quell them, they manifest into something else. Some outrageous possible event that’s a mix of what has happened and what could happen.

Your mind will make you think of millions of scenarios, sometimes with new ways to do the things you wish you said or did. Specifically in moments where a lack of safety and mistrust existed, combined with similar instances with the same people.

Anxiety and depression are the wardens that can feel hard to escape from, but they can be beaten.

Growing to the point of escaping the sources of those feelings can be helpful. Even while you’re in the environments that cause them, any positive tethers you may have are vital to keeping you set on your goals.

It doesn’t matter who the sources are. Family by blood or in spirit will have their influences. The same with past and present lovers. But your work to break free from them, combined with the boundaries you’ll set against them, will make the tears and screaming all worth it.

You’ll breathe again. Just stay on the path those darker feelings, and the people that project them, want to blind you from. Because nothing hurts their pride more than you walking into your purpose.

D.F