The top reason I’ve created this blog is because tomorrow isn’t promised. Whatever happens to me in the future, I want something left behind of me that said that I believed in myself. That I believed in gaining something better than the toxic uncertainty of my current environments.

I want this to show that there’s progress to be had and made from confronting and being open about my perspective of the past and present. One that others refuse to acknowledge ever happening, even with proof.

Being more open in these thoughts, as well as my self-respect in the last six months of this being made, has shown me who’s worth celebrating for sticking with me in these years of growth that led to this blog’s creation.

For the last couple of days, I’ve been thinking about what I may do beyond this month. Start a new format, maybe even talk more about the positives that are in life, because they truly do exist.

That, and because I can only write and remix some of the same thoughts repeatedly for so long. Even the remixes are often based on new thoughts that failed to come out in previous related entries.

Emotional growth, though, is a series of fluctuating, chaotic waves. The deeper it goes, the more memories can surface that you never considered being part of a decades-long problem. Problems you refuse to add to, or distribute elsewhere.

So with that, it’s best for me to not change the format. Worry for me if I stop sharing what I’ve worked hard to summon the courage to do in any form, on any site.

Some of you don’t even know my name, age, gender, sex, any of that. And you’re still here, for reasons I would love for you to share with me. It’ll help me know that I’m doing something more than just putting likable words together.

From the beginning, and in the end, I’m not doing this just for me. I’m doing this for anyone that was in the same place that I was for a good portion of my life until six months ago. To finally find, or even let that inner voice out, the one that wants to speak up on issues, at the chance of encouraging others to do the same, and even begin a conversation.

Some of my favorite talks with friends and occasionally strangers revolved around the topics presented here. I hope that never stops. Because even if I have to slow down posting because of a mix of both desired and unforeseen life changes, stopping won’t be an option.

But trust that when I need a break, I will do my best to announce that I need it. You, the people who’ve followed me for so long, deserve to know that.

As always, thank you for being here with me. It means more than I can even put into words.

D.F.