Sometimes it feels like your happiness should not be shared to the world.
The broader the announcement, the greater the threat it can be to that declaration.
That can come from a history of people in your present and past life that may take that happiness and “punish” you for finding it.
Reasons can include that you found it outside of their provisions and conditions, or their beliefs that your purer definitions of happiness do not match theirs.
Jealousy and envy comes in different and surprising forms. The longer you abide by the rules of people that feel it, the harder it seems to reveal your passions. Especially with those who act like they have emotional leverage over you.
Then comes a point where you say “yes, I deserve this, and it’s time people know that I do, no matter how they feel about me.”
Whatever that announcement may be, know that for every person who celebrates you, the others will either be repulsed away, or try to stick around to see how long that feeling lasts.
The second part reminds me of what’s said about anger towards someone, where they’re drinking poison hoping it hurts the other person. Double for those who can not admit their own faults that created the hate for you.
Declare your happiness. It’s okay to be scared of who or what tries to take it from you based on what you’re still healing from. The people responsible for that history will avoid exposing their hate until it hurts them. Being aware of it should never hurt you so much that you don’t believe that you deserve that happiness. Even if you do still wish to keep it secret and safe.
You always have.
D.F.