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November 16th, 2022

I’ve been working on a new side project that’s based on the specific topic of narcissism. I’ve touched onto it a few times in here, but the refinement has a flow to it, that I’d like to share a piece of what’s written so far.

“In a world where everyone is the main character in their own story, they want to be the main character in yours. Is that fair? To them it is, more so when you live with one for any time frame. Even if they congratulate or celebrate any personal accomplishments, it’s only a matter of time before they use it as a weapon to make you feel small. As if that victory or step forward is an affront to their logic and malice.

A narcissist can’t be called out on this, or anything. The older they get, the wider their mental range of deflections and excuses becomes. Remorse, guilt, and shame are four-letter-words to them. Unless they want you to feel remorse for doing better than their scope, guilt for not considering their feelings, and shame for not believing that they are your hero. Note that self-proclaimed heroes are often equal to the self-proclaimed “nice person.”

These people will use your past against you despite any contradictions to their own. They’ll make you look like as much of a fool as they once did, regardless of their past situation having any effect on you or not. They will make you as small as they felt in times of their own weaknesses. If you bring those moments to light, they can snap or get loud. All that to say that it’s clear that they can be more than just a villain in your story. They are the monster in plain sight. The classic wolf in sheep’s clothing. And if you’re close by blood and they do it to you with no sign of stopping, trust that you’re not their only target. ”

This is still a work in progress, and I’m three pages in. Not sure how long this will be in the end, but it’s pretty clear that something calling me to start this. It worked out before, that’s why this blog is here.

I’ll also do my best to take a break all of next week. I’ll have one more post this coming Friday, but we’ll see if that sticks after that.
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August 24th, 2022

For as long as I have dealt with narcissists, combined with times that I mimicked their behavior, I wondered what makes them that way?

For me, I didn’t know any better, and chances are had been absorbing their behavior without realizing it was anything negative. This is primarily true through various homes, extending to the influence of people outside of it.

But for me to realize any of that, it took an impactful loss to even start getting on the path of being better. The type of loss that no longer feels like there was anything to lose, because much was gained since then. Plus, it’s easier to see that time as the first step of waking up to your own toxicity, as well as others.

Will the same apply to other narcissists?

What will they have to lose for them to reflect on their mistakes, acts of deception, anything to make sure they don’t leave behind more victims of their cruelty?

Don’t waste your energy on confronting them about it either. The defense of their acts will try to match the love you have for yourself for not dealing with their class of people anymore.

Whether it’s the loss of one person, or everything that they received through their behavior, it is something worth questioning, but shouldn’t be anything to dwell too hard on.

It’s already bad enough that a narcissist will want you to think about them more than yourself. But no doubt they will hate that you see, and especially speak about them in the negative light that they comfortably bask in.

Tag: NPD

The Walk

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